Friday, April 20, 2007

Single Moms CD Testimonial

I couldn't wait to purchase and listen to Lori's CD Single Moms: Struggles and Strengths. I did so on Wednesday and to date I have listened to it 3 times. While listening to Lori and Louise's dialogue, I found myself more then a little engaged! I found out many things. One was why I have always had a deep respect for Lori, almost from the time I met her. Her single Mom struggles were not lost on me and now listening to her CD I realized how much her life mirrors my own Mom, who was a single mother during the 70's (not a very socially acceptable time). My Mom did the same things that Lori did, but the money she earned was still far below what she needed to make, to maintain a good life for me and for my sister. She chose to marry a man she didn't love to provide us with a home and security. That is a profoundly hard thing to understand, except when listening to Lori I realized, it was a different form of pride. She had a job, but by providing us with what was perceived as the "proper" family and home, she felt good.

It's amazing how much impact the conversation between Louise and Lori had on me. Lori is so real to me, not just because I know her and she's my friend. She has a way to make the WELness™ series accessible, not only to me, but to so many other women. As Louise put it so well, Lori is the poster child for the WELness™ series . She attained all the goals she set out for herself and she's just keeps evolving! She inspired me to reach out for my dreams as well, and it's an amazing thing to have someone in your life where it's all positive and welcoming.

Thank you Louise for showing Lori this amazing path to self awareness and discovery, you're presentation of the series engaged her to reveal and "decloak" the real Lori, who was there all along. I love what you said about her, who is this amazing 'unmasked woman'!

There are so many different facets to Lori, but the outstanding personality traits are her teaching abilities, her leadership qualities and she's an amazing Mom! I feel like if I had to describe her in one word it would be EXTRAORDINARY!

Again, thank you both.

Laura Beaton
Dartmouth, NS

Wednesday, April 18, 2007

Some Insight

Next Monday afternoon I have an appointment for Omega Testing / Nutrition Consultation from Amy McNaughton.

Amy is another WEL-Woman and owns her own business Growing Forward where she encompasses all of her disciplines to offer a unique service to consumers. Bringing her Health & WELness coaching (WEL-Systems) together with her Omega Testing and Nutritional Consulting I believe Amy is well positioned to be highly successful as she carves a future that is both meaningful to her and will offer such an awakening to her customers.

I look forward to meeting with Amy and listening to different ways that I can consider doing things differently when it comes to my nutritional choices.

I don't know much about what Amy does and this is why I have an appointment with her, to learn first hand and become curious about other aspects of my life.

I'll keep you all posted on this exploratory chapter of my journey to whole health. One breath at a time, step by step, moving forward to a balanced life.

Sunday, April 15, 2007

Time Triggers

On Friday I decided to tape over the clocks and pay attention to my own body and what it is telling me.

What I discovered was that I pay more attention to the clocks than I do to my body.

I discovered I was more thirsty than hungry throughout the day. I discovered after having 1 toast before 7 a.m. that I wasn't hungry for lunch until almost 2 p.m.

Yet in the run of my day living with clocks, I eat.

I eat when I get to work (don't have time to eat at home most times).

I eat again at 9:30 break time (most days).

I eat at 11:45 or Noon depending on if I am going for a walk or out for lunch.

I often will look to eat around 2:30 to "get me through".

Then I eat again supper, around 5 p.m.

Then after everyone in the house is asleep, I "make lunches" and eat some more.

Whew, actually writing it down brings a resonance with my own self. To actually admit it to myself... was quite unreal to me... yet denial was a place I've been at for quite some time with regards to my food issues.

When I am not aware of the TIME and choosing to listen to my body... I don't eat nearly as much.

So what kind of trigger or habit does time hold for me? It's irrelevant, all I need to know is I can no longer be unaware of this anymore. I know now, is whatever that may be... it no longer serves me.

As I begin my day each day now I must NOT pay attention to clocks.... to break my cycle of mindless eating... choosing to pay attention to myself and ask in each moment... is this what I want?

Friday, April 13, 2007

What's it all about?

Whole Health. What does it mean to you?

For me it is feeling whole, feeling connected, mind, body and spirit.

So when I allow myself to remember who I am, I have my whole health.

So what is all of this about? My intention, my journey of matching my outside self with my inside self? We are one, there is no difference.

What it boils down to is making conscious decisions and choices about what I take into my body (nourishment/sustenance) and what I choose to do with my body (movement/exercise).

Recognizing when subconscious programs are running (habits) and choosing in the moment that is no longer serving me.

I find myself still going to the cupboards after everyone is in bed... I recognize this is a habit and I decide in that moment, do I continue or do I stop and choose differently.

One thing I know I am going to start doing today is make lunches for my family right after supper instead of when everyone goes to sleep.

Today I am also going to experiment with covering up the clocks so I don't know what time it is. As I am home by myself this would be a perfect day to do that. To become attuned to the rhythm of my own body and what it is saying to me.

Right now it wants some tea to warm up!

Discovering mySelf, listening once again to the sound of my body, remembering my whole self.

Wednesday, April 11, 2007

Remembering

As I decided to begin this new journey a few days ago I have discovered by simply bringing this intention of a whole healthy me into my awareness has changed the way I move through my world.

My body knows. I am not feeling the "need" to snack so much, to over indulge. I can no longer be NOT aware of who I see myself as.

Louise invited me to bring into my awareness a time when I was most powerful in all ways. And remember how that was for me. And it brings tears to my eyes because I remember.

Remembering how I feel when I am at that place of deep knowing.

Being connected with everything and everyone, yet knowing how resourceful I am and who I am.

Remembering the feeling of immensity, the fullness, the complete saturation of who I was, who I am and who I can become inside of me at the same time, bursting out filling up the space in which I sat.

And the peace and calmness I felt inside.

That is who I am.

That is who I need to remember I am as I move through my day to day world. CHOOSING to keep that sacred and feeling it within me.

Set my intention at a higher level of thinking.

This is who I am...The rest will fall into place.

Well on my way to a whole healthy me.

Monday, April 9, 2007

The Beginning

I am tired.

I feel icky.

My clothes no longer fit properly. I have literally busted out of some pants (rips, tears) hmm that is very interesting tear as in tearing clothes is spelt the same as tear... or maybe I just suck at spelling.

I am feeling lethargic.

I am beginning to feel depressed.

I am feeling large but not a good way. Actually huge comes to mind for me.

I decided I have to do something about it. How is that going to happen?

It can only happen one way, I have to do something to change it.

I'm going to be getting married sometime soon. I haven't set a date yet because I needed to be certain of somethings, now that I am sure of my upcoming marriage, I need to feel good about myself. And there is only one thing I am not feeling good about... my weight, size, health. I can be very happy being overweight as long as I feel good physically and mentally.

Hmm, or is that statement just one that I have always said to myself to make me feel alright with myself?

I need to get active again. I need to start eating to sustain my health not detract from it eating as a form of controlling my life, my surroundings, my anger, my spite.

I want to be able to walk by chocolate and not feel like I have to hurry up and eat them before they are gone. I want to not feel like I have to hide it... because man do I hide it.

As a child I hid it, as a teenager I sneaked it. As an adult I'm back to hiding it. Waiting for everyone to be in bed or out of the house then eating mindlessly because I can. Because I had a hard day. Because I can't possibly eat this in front of people so this is the only time to do it.

And I did this just today. Just now before starting this forum... because its Easter, the bunny was here for the kids and the baby is sleeping, Jessica is out of the house, and Mike is at work.

And I feel disgusting... I feel horrible about why I did that, and not having an answer.

This is going to be a major decloaking for me.

Talking about all of these issues that are so very personal to me.

Things I am ashamed of not only because I know better but because growing up I was taught to be ashamed of it. I was verbally, emotionally and physically abused in my past all surrounding food, inactivity and my outward appearances. That all sticks to the very make up of my cells and is something I want to make sure stops here.

Last year I started my journey on my interior self, my discovery of who I am and what makes me tick; see my Exploring Our Potential Blog. Today I start my journey on my exterior self, to match the both together... to create a Whole Healthy Me.